Yesterday I pitched two ideas for articles to a magazine. One I had written up a few versions; the other I hadn't written anything yet. I included it because I figured two ideas was better than one. That turns out to be true because the editor liked only my second idea. I was struck momentarily with excitement: I finally submitted something that was not rejected! But I think I've got used to rejection because my next thought was oh shit! My terror was based on a spiral of self-doubting statements: what if I don't write what she wants? What if I can't get it together within the timeframe? What if it's not right for the magazine after all? What if I completely forget how to string words together and collapse into an incoherent mess for the next two weeks? I managed to calm down after making some notes of story ideas, deciding on a direction for the article, as well as some serious meditation. Now I'm off the roller-coaster of anxiety and able to hopefully write an engaging and relevant article over the weekend.
Has anyone else experienced a negative emotional response to a positive event?
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