I realised the other night that while living in the moment, enjoying my time with my husband and being myself is all well and good, I can’t just put my desires aside to wait for him to make up his mind. I need to remember to keep checking in with myself too about whether I’m still in love him and want to wait for him to sort out his issues. Today, I’m still in love with my husband and am willing to leave myself vulnerable to whatever happens. I know that if our relationship comes to an end I’ll be heartbroken, but will survive. That’s what he was talking about with inter-dependence the other day - knowing you are your own independent person, but willing to open yourself to sharing your life in a vulnerable way with another person. Now I guess I need to wait and see if my husband can come to this understanding too.
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