Significant Dinner

Tonight we had a significant dinner. My husband took me for sushi and told me about some serious thinking he’s been doing lately. He’s been thinking about us, his motives for being married to me and our future together. He talked about emotional co-dependence compared to healthy inter-dependence. I’d also noticed a lack of connection between us as well as his sense of relief and independence at being sent out-of-state to work these past few months. My first feeling was sadness and fear at what this would mean for us. My first thought was that self-reflection and examination of our relationship is a healthy thing. My second thought was that I have two weeks, while he’s home for the holidays, to make myself as desirable as possible. Luckily I dismissed that and we laughed about it later. What I have decided to do is to live in the moment with him and be as true to myself and my values as I can. If that’s not what he wants in the end, then that’s for him to decide. We have agreed that we both have work to do and that no decisions will be made over the next two weeks while he’s home or while he’s still working full-time interstate. This is just another way in which 2013 is going to bring changes to life as I know it.