What's in a name?

According to my Apple dictionary, admittedly not a definitive source, a ‘consideration’ is a thought, reflection, meditation, concern, rumination etc. I would like this blog to do those things. I’m hoping I can keep the posts positive because, as someone once reminded me, it is important to practise the habits of mind that you value and want to foster. For me those are: positivity, curiosity, openness and self-reflection (hence, a blog is a good forum).


Also, I’m calling them 'small' because I would like to try to get into the habit of blogging briefly but often. That way I can reflect on everyday occurrences and make this form of writing and thinking a habit, hopefully.


Thursday, 14 February 2013

The reveal

My husband and I are seeing a relationship counsellor to try to salvage our marriage and get it back on track. Tonight, after seeing us individually, she will share the thoughts and feelings that simmer behind our negative interactions. Once in the open, we can start to overcome our uncommunicative behaviour patterns, I guess. I'm feeling a mix of curiosity and nervousness about the process. I was interested to learn in my session with her yesterday that I feel stifled and voiceless when an issue arises which my husband disagrees with (or that I think he will). I wonder how he's feeling during our conflicts and when I shut down and walk away. I am ready, now though, to claim my voice and be who I know I am, but even so there's a little voice in the back of my mind warning me: 'what if I hurt his feelings with something I say...' and 'what if I say something dumb/illogical that can be ridiculed...'. I'll have to risk that, and the gain to myself and our relationship will be worth it.
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